If you're like me, you have a short attention span, a knack for finding the sweetest and most delicious treats when you are feeling emotional, and a habit of becoming engulfed in something completely...until you're not.
I was talking to a friend the other day about stress eating.
She asked, "Why don't you just replace it with stress working out?"
Great idea - That's another thing I do sometimes...
When I have an obsession, I own it...until I don't any more...
Obsessive Working Out - 1 time a day, 300 calories minimum, late night "oops I ate too many calories" workouts, tracking calories like a crazy person, weighing myself and re-evaluating my process EVERY DAY, avoiding the cinnabon hallway at the mall, talking about being healthy ALL THE TIME (until friends stop calling)
Obsessive "stress" Eating - Treats whenever I feel like it, an "I deserve this" attitude, eating until I'm full, ignoring calories because (I'll deal with these later, I'm too stressed to think about it), intentionally placing myself near snacks that I think I might like (poutine, gluten free cakes, rice crispies from Norris), eating whatever I want ALL THE TIME (until I stop calling friends - who wants to be the girl who gave up on working out and IT SHOWS!!!), lol
Obsessive Budgeting - Checking my bank balance every 3 hours, reminding myself of my goals, beating myself up for buying coffee instead of making it, talking about budgeting and healthy finances ALL THE TIME (until my friends feel bad for me and start buying me coffee so I shut up about it, LOL).
Heck, I was obsessed with video games for awhile. Skyrim specifically. Noble questing through an imaginary world, fighting dragons, casting spells, battling evil. No big deal...
Sometimes I feel like I can only do one thing REALLY well ALL the time. It's a self defeating attitude, but there it is.
(This is why I probably shouldn't have kids)
I admire people who seem to have it all together all of the time. I envy them. (Though I'm told everyone is just faking it, and that gives me a little hope).
So today I come back to this place (again) where I recognize my shortfalls and pick up the pieces. I'm telling the inner voices to take a hike and I'm replacing their nagging with:
This will be a better week.
I will not allow stress to get the better of me.
I will take it all one day at a time.
I'm good at this.
Gosh I must be an adult or something.
